Holey Shmoley..

Ok well it's obviously been entirely too long since i updated this silly thing. Maybe one reason is because there have just been so many exciting things happening that the thought of taking enough time to write them all through seems overwhealming..either that or im just too lazy and dont really care enough about filling in anyone who uses this blog to update themselves on my life instead of just phoning..
ANYWAY... Here I am, on the eve of my 21st birthday..Engaged, living at my parents house and still searching for some kind of substantial job (I havnet given in and applied at the Co-op yet, but my desperation is getting there). It's not exactly like i don't have enough to keep me busy.. If anyone has ever told you its easy to plan a wedding, either they're lying, or they were lucky enough to have a mom willing to do all of the grunt work and organization for them. But as crazy as it often feels, I am enjoying this period of my life..Sometimes i just have to sit down, breathe, and remind myself of that fact, but it's true. And at least I have the problem of having TOO MANY outrageous ideas for my wedding to fit them all together, rather than not having enough.
Steven's so incredibly helpful as well.. It's unreal really, and much more than I would expect from him or any other boy..He just blows me away again and again with the compassion and paitients he has with me and my overreacting and stressing over nothing in the planning process...I dont know how (because i know if i were him, i'd be driving me crazy!) but he seems to find it easy to just smile at me and help me sort it out rather than being frustrated with things like changing my entire colour scheme 5 times before deciding what i want, and when I need his input on the invitation wording or on the flower arrangments because sometimes it just feels like he's the only one who will really understand what I want or what im talking about..Im so thankful im not doing this alone and that he actually cares about making sure im happy and working through all the details with me..He even had an easier time at our silly Gift Registration session than i did. ha..anyway, he just reminds me every day why i want to marry him so much, and of how incredibly blessed i am!
The only major concern on my mind these days (besides finding the perfect ribbon to finish the invites with;) is this job-issue...I really, really need to start making some money..and here's my dillema..I dont want to just go out and get any corner store or co-op job that I really wont enjoy, because i know I'm going to be here for at least the next 2 years, and i really want something (aka credit union or art gallery, both of which im waiting to hear back from right now) that I can enjoy and make more than 9 bucks an hour at. You know? I know i can just get something dumb for the time-being and keep looking for something else at the same time, but for some reason that just does not seem reasonable to me.. Maybe im just selfish or spoiled, but if im going to be working full-time, i want to be enjoying it. Anyway, i'm praying about it a lot, and i know God has a plan, so for now I'm keeping busy with wedding stuff and leaving my resume everywhere i can think of, and hoping something will turn up.
Tonight we're having a yummy celebratory dinner of chef salads with prawns and steak for my birthday, and tomorrow steven has the afternoon off so Im hoping the slushy-snowy-rainy-pouringness coming out of the sky will ease up so we can go walk on the beach for awhile..
for now im off to shower and get ready for dinner.
love to you all
PS, I've linked this page to my FaceBook account..just found that feature! it's neat. lol.