it's early..well, not that early. 10 o'clock on a friday morning can hardly consitute early.. but there's something about opening a new day with complaining about it that is just so irresistable. You know what I mean. Sometimes (oftentimes), it doesn't matter how many things are going "right" in our lives, we always seem to dwell on the negative. If you have a completely fantastic day at work, but then have to walk home in the gale-force winds and rain outside, your day is effectivley ruined, and no one you talk to that evening will hear about your exceptional day, only about how soaked and cold you were by the time you got home, and how much you hate the west-coast winter weather.
I hate negativity. Yet, I'm prone to it more than almost anyone else I know. It's a constant, daily stuggle to stay positive, even in the best of times. I know, you think I'm weak and and lazy and if I had any self-control or will-power I'd be just fine..or maybe if I just stopped dwelling on the fact that I dwell on the negative..well, maybe that is true. Maybe the fact that our furnace is broken and its 13 degree's in here should mean nothing compared to the blessing that it is to live together in our lovely little home.
It's so easy to get side tracked, isn't it? Away from what's really important..Away from the comfort and security that comes with being content. That is my goal for this year. I want to be content. Here, now, without a new car or a vacation to Greece. I want to love and be loved. To live fully, to my fullest potential. To be a blessing to the people around me, and to know beyond a doubt that my Father in Heaven is proud of who I am.
The sunshine has just broken through the clouds and filled my living room with it's warm glow. There's nothing like winter sunshine. The cool crisp air contrasting with the warm sun hitting your face is one of my favorite feelings in the world...And hey, if my furnace was working, I probably wouldn't have even noticed it;)
-Kait
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